I’ve been thinking about starting a blog for a while now, in fact longer than a while, but I just haven’t had the guts to bring myself to do it. To say I had ‘the fear’ is an understatement. The thought of starting a blog was so daunting; what do I write? Who can I bribe to read it? Will I look like a complete ninny?
The latter really bothered me, perhaps a little more than it should. I wish I was someone who didn’t care what people think, but unfortunately I do. I care a lot. Since moving in with Joe (AKA the sidepiece, for future reference), I’ve become an avid Instagram fan. I like taking photos of my cat. I like taking photos of the home that I love more and more every day. My home. I also like taking photos of my loved ones, our adventures & pretty flowers. Sounds like a match made in heaven to me!
A few people have asked me about my Instagram and have scoffed, “So you’re a blogger now?” As if being a blogger is some kind of an insult. The more comments that were made, the more embarrassed I got, when in reality I had/have nothing to be embarrassed about. I found a new interest, a new passion (obsession) and for the first time in a long time I felt like I could be a little creative again. So why did I feel like it was a silly thing and that I had to hold back?
It really got me thinking, which is never a good thing. Anyone who knows me knows that I worry about everything; any seed of doubt that is planted in my head and BAM! The over-thinker in me takes over. You see the thing is, you know how most girls in their early 20’s spend all their money on clothes and make up, well I spend all mine on candles and said pretty flowers. I mean no one ever has ever cried because a bunch of pretty blooms made them feel fat. Nope, flowers only bring happiness. Fact.
I tend to second guess my choices far too often. This is a trait that I’m working on. I’m slowly learning how to become a more confident woman (I still feel too young to be called a woman!) as well as figuring out how to embrace the love and admiration from the gorgeous people around me. And I’m learning to release my creative side and finally do what makes me happy, not what I think will make everyone else happy.
I love writing, I absolutely adore people and I’m hoping that I can combine both of these loves and share little insights into the beautiful life that I live.
And so it begins…